Right Or Wrong, Night Or Day

Once I was a victim of stress
Nothing seemed right
Everything seemed wrong
I wasn’t too sure
I was right or wrong
Until I realized
I was doing all wrong

Then I was a victim of insomnia
Couldn’t sleep at night
Couldn’t nap at day
I wasn’t too sure
It was night or day
Until I noticed
I was sleeping at day

Now I am a victim of both
Nothing seems right
Can’t sleep at night
Everything seems wrong
Can’t nap at day

I am not too sure
I am right or it is night
I am not too sure
I am wrong or it is day
Until I realized
I am doing all wrong at night
Until I noticed
I am sleeping all right at day


17 July 2001, Tuesday
12:45am

But I Failed

My eyes are shut but not my brain
A thousand needles piercing through
I try to halt
But I failed
As they pierce deeply
Sanity is gone

My ears are closed but not my heart
A billion drums beating on
I try to mute
But I failed
As they beat fervently
Serenity is ceased

My body is still but not my soul
A million quakes hitting clear
I try to ease
But I failed
As they hit fiercely
The poet is dead


13 July 2001, Friday
3:10am

My Farewell To You

Goodbye dear
My farewell to you
For I could not tell
If you would stay or go

Goodbye dear
My farewell to you
For I have not seen your shadow
Dances around my own

Goodbye dear
My farewell to you
For three springs had passed us by
I have not heard your love tune
By my pillow side

Goodbye dear
My farewell to you
For I could not wait for eternity
By then I would have returned
To ashes and earth


6 May 2001, Sunday
Early morning

Winters Of Misery

Three winters of misery
Bloody black-red snow
Tormented cold wind blow
Pinned my fragile glass made bones
Stabbed my broken lifeless veins
Stirred my blood purple and green

Imprisoned in fiery cage
Mental torture slashed me insane
Sharp needles rusty nails pinches
I held my hands grabbed them close
Bite my tongues swallowed hell through
I yearned and prayed, prayed and cried
For tranquility to strike Satan outright

Evils threads pulled my eyelids wide
Torturous nightmares battled in my mind
My staying sanity lost every fight
Each episode won by Satan in disguised

Flickered sun stood tall and bold
Arrow-downed poor withered moon
Agonized cold sweat froze my body stiff
Fearful depression murdered my trusting spirit
To face the torture chamber a painful chore
I was a seized living dead

18 April 2001, Wednesday, 6:03pm

Feel Me Hold Me Love Me

Seal your lips
Not a word
Ease your hands
Not to pen
Just feel me… Silently!

Rest beside me
Not on my chest
Lean on me
Not on my back
Just hold my hand… Gently!

Stare into my eyes
Not my beauty
Sense my touch
Not my charm
Just love me… Passionately!

Just… Feel me
Hold me
Love me

And I shall feel you… Abundantly!

18 April 2001, Wednesday
2:47pm

Death Is Truth

I have been enchanted by death
Death is truth
Truth is within my heart
Heart is where dreams are shattered
Shattered my hopes in life
Life is nothing but hell
Hell is where I belong
Belong to the masters of demon
Demon is the game of heaven
Heaven is non-other than lies
Lies remain true
True as in death


27 March 2001
3:54am

Guide Me to Your Gate

For life is cruel
I shall end it now
Misery will be over
Tomorrow will be heaven
My mind will be at peace
My body will rest in peace
Underneath this thick earth
I shall find peace

My love will be true to me
All I need is only one cut
Let my blood washes away my sorrow
Let the knife be my witness of death
Let the blindness of the knife
Shows me the way

Oh God…
Give me the courage I need
Guide me to Your Gate


27 March 2001
3:50am

YOU

When you see a smile
You never take it away
You spice it up instead
With hehehehe
: - ))))
LOL… LOL…
giggles
Makes me feel brighter day after day

When you sense a frown
You never let it stays
You kick it out for sure
With mischief
tease
jokes
puns
Just to see a : - ) on my face

When you feel love
You never let it stops
You allow it to flow in
With dear
dearest
darling
my love

I LOVE YOU increases the
dup dup dup in my heart

When you notice a tease
You never let it go
You play along well
With stinker
:p
kiss kiss
cium cium
Makes me want to kiss kiss you with passion

When you realize the time
You never let me chat
You send me to bed
With hugs
kisses
ciao caro mio
later… MY LOVE!!!
I reach out my hands to
HHHhhhuUUuuugggGGG
KKiiiIIISSSsssiiiIIIsssSss
before I close my eyes
and dream all about you!

12 April 2000, Wednesday

In Despair

The moon lost his glow
In the forest
Without his twinkling stars
The sky is empty and dull
Don’t you feel lonely now?

In the forest is
Now dimly lit
Without any lives to make a sound
The trees are quiet and still
Don’t you feel sad now?

Now dimly lit
Stands an owl
Without making his usual hoot
The night is pale and gloom
Don’t you feel somber now?

Stands an owl
In despair
Without his lover to lament to
The lake is cold and gray
Don’t you feel dreary now?

In despair
The owl hoot
By the lake
Every night
On the tree
In the forest
Blanketed by the sky
At the moon
Not the stars
For his lover to come soon

Don’t you my love?
I know I sure do!

Before You Finally Come To Me

The nights get lonely and longer
Without the love of someone dear

How lonely should one get?
How much longer should one wait?
Before a falling star grants a wish!

The days get anxious and painful
Without the love of someone dear

How anxious should one get?
How much pain should one feel?
Before a rainbow sprinkles some colours!

The heart gets lonely and painful
Without the love, the touch of someone dear

How anxious should I get?
How much longer should I wait?
Before you finally come to me dear!


14 November 1999, Sunday

Willow Weeps By The River

Willow weeps by the river
Its crystal tears break the flow
Wakes the underworld from their dreams
Holding their breath they gaze in silence

Softly mourning is the wind
Sway the willow back and forth
Its crystal tears are blown away
Though blend with mist still can be seen

Melancholic tune of flute is gently heard
Sadden the willow’s tender heart
Sing the willow a blue tune
Painted the underworld in gray

Willow bends to steal a glimpse
The ripple moon is as far as it is seen
The mirror reflects and the willow sees
A crying willow at the brim


14 November 1999, Sunday

Evening Wind Morning Dew

Evening wind Morning dew
Soft and breeze Light and sweet
Splashing stars Dashing clouds
Dazzling moon Blazing sun
Calm and still Bright and brisk

Whisper to the morn
Words of love
Touches the hearts
Of chirping birds
Whisper to the dusk
Words of warmth
Touches the hearts
Of rustling pines

What is night? What is day?

Roses bloom
Across the horizon
Floating spirits
Of East and West
Tune of love
Is what is heard!

16 September 1999
1:17am

You Are The Reason

You are the reason, the only reason
I stay awake by the moonlight
Whispering to the starlight
How much I love you with all my might
Making me feel such delight

You are the reason, the only reason
I sleep so well at night, night after night
In darkness not accompany by any lights
Knowing I will be safe being cuddle tight
No nightmares shall give me a fright

You are the reason, the only reason
I wake up with a smile at sunlight
For I have you by my side so tight
From bright daylight till starry night
In this world full of plight

You are the reason, the only reason
I shed tears of true delight
For I see you in Lord’s light
A passionate soul so gentle, kind and bright
That will love me with all your might

18 April 1999
6:49pm

Tonight, Tomorrow Night and Every Other Night

I shall close my eyes
Tonight, tomorrow night
And every other night
To dream the wonderful you
For you have brought me such joy in life
Filled my heart with love and sunshine
No one but only you can provide

Before I close my eyes
I shall thank Lord
Tonight, tomorrow night
And every other night
For He has given me someone special
Who is romantic, loving and kind
To share his life with mine


14 July 1998, Tuesday
1:25am

One Heavenly Heart

How I wish
You were here
To give me at least a hug
So I could feel
The warmth of your arms
The tenderness of your touch

How I wish
To listen to your whispers
While I close my eyes at dusk
To rise in the morning with a smile
Knowing you will breathe words of love
That touches my heart

How I wish
We weren’t so far apart
Separated by the ocean
Though we share the same sky above
Wishing and hoping we are within touch
So as to join our missing pieces
Into one heavenly heart

The Day Our Souls Unite

I am counting the days
Blessing the nights
For you to be here
To share your life with mine

Soon it will no longer be
Dawn for you or dusk for me
We shall have the same
So I could love you tenderly

I shall treasure the moment
We confess our love in words
Our ever first gentle loving touch
Shall remain forever within my heart

The days maybe be longer
The nights may seem forever
Truly I do not mind
For I shall have you so close by my side

Not Just A Clown

With cheerful eyes
Wide broad smile
He makes children laugh
Entertains them with songs and tales
Makes them forget the pain
They suffer for a while
They giggle and chuckle
They love him
They call him Bobo Brown

Believe me
I know him well
A caring and loving man
Not just a clown!